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I’ve written articles for L.A. Weekly and Insomniac.com.

Take a peek at some selected works below. My previous work centered on music and how it shapes our culture. I am looking to freelance for publications that center around art, culture, queerness, and music. Reach out if my editorial voice matches your creative vision.

Saturation Fest Celebrates The Inland Empire’s Growing DIY Rock Scene

Singer Melissa Loera wouldn’t be fronting her own band, Miss Chief, if it wasn’t for the music and arts community in the Inland Empire. Much less playing an integral role in the I.E.'s DIY music scene, as one of the organizers and curators of the annual Saturation Fest, which returns to Riverside this weekend.

Loera was born in Fontana, the child of Mexican immigrants. Her parents worked hard to provide a comfortable life for Melissa and her older sister, Stephanie, who had a band of her own and would frequent shows put on by I.E.-based label Silencio Recordings.

Silencio, founded in 2003 by Lou Anda and the late Sean Pineda, is credited by many as giving rise to today's Inland Empire music community. The label mentored and supported anyone who was trying to get an artistic project off the ground in the I.E. From musicians to zine makers to artists, Anda and his crew would provide the tools and materials people needed to improve or spread their craft. Silencio threw free or cheap shows and festivals at breweries, coffee shops and small music venues across the I.E., making just enough money to continue pressing records and throwing events for friends.

“The founders, Lou and Sean, were very supportive,” Loera says of those early days. “If you wanted to do something, they were all for it. When my sister asked Lou, ‘Why are there no girl bands in the I.E.?’ he said, 'Why don’t you start one?'”

Although Melissa was sheltered by her parents and wasn’t able to attend Silencio’s events, she lived vicariously through her big sister, and knew she wanted to be involved in music as soon as she was old enough.

Silencio Recordings' influence began to wane around 2010, when Loera turned 19. Some musicians stayed in the area, but many of the homegrown I.E. bands moved to L.A. in hopes of reaching a larger audience. But though many musicians left, the influence of the scene they created was permanent, and the I.E. arts community never truly fizzled out.

Loera formed Miss Chief with her sister and a couple of other local musicians in the I.E., but moved to L.A. in 2010 to be closer to a fellow I.E.-born musician she’d fallen in love with. Right away, she could tell the city's music scene, with its many transplant bands trying to “make it,” didn't provide the close-knit community she was used to. Worse, she felt that venues didn’t treat musicians as human beings but as a way to make money.

“It’s competitive in L.A., and there’s a very narcissistic, vain mentality sometimes,” Loera says. “People are from different states or countries, and they just want to get paid. They only think of doing music in a general sense.”

After three years of hustling in the city, Loera's spirit was broken, and Miss Chief as a band was no longer. She moved back to the Inland Empire and planned to put her musical aspirations to rest, but her family and friends convinced her otherwise. After a hiatus and lots of outside encouragement, Loera decided to revive Miss Chief as a solo project, and performed for the first time in months with a new crop of local musicians, whom she called her “misters.” 

“Today, you can’t really make a living off of being an artist like you used to,” Loera says. “It could be really disheartening. The I.E. is home to a community and really good support system telling you otherwise; that’s what really helped me to continue to pursue music.”

Although the original community created by Silencio Recordings is no longer present, there are still creative people, musicians, photographers and artists who choose to reside far east of Los Angeles in order to save money and to be part of a supportive environment.

The arts community is small, according to Michael Rey, bassist for Miss Chief, but it’s unified and growing. “The big difference between the I.E. and L.A. or O.C. is there’s [fewer] creative people in the I.E. It’s not something I want to say, and I would love to change that.”

Rey says that everyone is hustling to help the scene flourish. For instance, Daniel Aaron Flores, the current drummer for Miss Chief, runs a company called Still Life Press that makes stamps, buttons and zines. Loera has worked with Flores and a local artist named Amanda Martin to create zines that help promote shows and local bands.

For his part, Rey plays in three different groups and bought his own duplicator so he can start helping local bands create tapes to take to shows. He hopes his project, called El Rey Tapes, will turn into the I.E.’s equivalent of Burger or Lolipop Records. His long-term goal is to open an all-ages DIY space in the next year and use it to help promote local bands and encourage folks from other scenes to see what the I.E. has to offer.

“The goal is to get kids and musicians from L.A. and the O.C. to come to the Inland Empire. We can make shit happen by having a big all-ages space, a DIY venue,” Rey says. “That’s what will help the scene grow.”

There’s something special about the I.E. that isn’t present in any other Southern California scene. To Rey and Loera, it’s a mixture of everyone growing up in the same socioeconomic status, recognizing that making money would never be the end goal, and maintaining the DIY spirit of Silencio Recordings. Both Rey and Loera live with their wholly supportive parents, and both claim it’s the only way they’d be able to survive and make the art they love.

Chelsea Brown of Summer Twins, a Riverside-based band in which Rey also performs, adds that the I.E. is a special place because it supports a much smaller, more close-knit scene than its neighbors to the west. “Because L.A. and O.C. are so saturated with bands, it feels competitive at times,” Brown says. “You have to really work hard to gain an audience. I never really felt that competition in the I.E. and never felt judged, and that really allowed us and other bands to explore and try out new things.”

LINK TO STORY ON LA WEEKLY: https://www.laweekly.com/saturation-fest-celebrates-the-inland-empires-growing-diy-rock-scene/

How The Rave Community Helped This Dancer Overcome Her Darkest Hours

That talented 21-year-old in the image above has a neurological disorder.

Gabby J. David cuts shapes and shuffles like a champ while suffering from CRPS, or Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. It’s a chronic condition that most people, including doctors, don’t know much about. Lack of awareness was just one of the challenges Gabby had to face when her world was rocked by an accident that caused her CRPS back in June 2014.

When Gabby heard a crack in her foot during a rehearsal for a national dance competition, she didn’t know what was wrong, but the pain was unbearable. There was no way for her to see a doctor during the touring show, and to make matters worse, she didn’t have health insurance.

“As a dancer, you get injuries all the time,” Gabby explains. “It’s not okay to do, but I just kept dancing on it.”

She decided to write off the pain as a sprain and finish nationals. By the end of the tour, her foot was so swollen she couldn’t walk.

After Gabby returned home (then Ashburn, Virginia, though she currently splits her time between Harper’s Ferry, WV, and Berryville, VA) from the competition, she made a visit to the hospital where she was misdiagnosed with a sprain. This was only the first in a series of confusing misdiagnoses that would last nearly eight months.

While Gabby’s mother searched for a quality specialist, Gabby fell into a dark pit of depression. The longtime raver and classically trained dancer saw her life plans unraveling before her eyes. She had to decline a commercial dance scholarship at Relativity, an arts school in L.A., and also lost touch with her fellow dancers, who had become apathetic to her situation.

“Everyone from the dance world didn’t care who I was. I wasn’t benefitting them in any way. I was injured and useless to them. I would have given anything to not feel the pain for even five minutes.”

Gabby tried everything, including Xanax, which only made things worse. She admits that at her lowest point, she would polish off three full bars of Xanax a day. Her boyfriend at the time couldn’t stand to see her suffer. He helped her get off the antidepressant and stayed with her through the horrible withdrawals.

It wasn’t until February of 2015 that Gabby finally received a correct diagnosis. A dance orthopedic specialist told her she had CRPS and informed her that moving on the injury—as opposed to resting, which she’d been doing for months—was the only way she could recover. Gabby was revitalized at the thought of shuffling again to her heart’s content, but she was still stressed about paying out-of-pocket for treatment.

To find funds, Gabby looked to the rave community—a world she’d been a part of since she was 16. She was good at making jewelry and had done so for her rave fam and friends in the past, so she decided to start an online store called Feeling of Divinity, where she sold her creations.

Gabby reached out to several pages, including iheartEDM, raveselfies and EDMHumor, to promote the online shop; the response was phenomenal. Both Gabby’s personal Instagram and her store’s pages grew exponentially over a matter of months. The response lifted Gabby’s spirits, and she was able to fund her treatments with profits from the sales. In September of 2015, Gabby was cleared by her physical therapist to dance again.

“I’m eternally grateful to the rave community. I would probably still be sitting in my room depressed if these people didn’t take time out of their day to reach out to me.”

As Gabby got better, EDM-focused companies and websites were constantly sharing her old shuffling videos and commissioning her to create more. DJs like Chris Lake and Oskar Wylde also took notice of Gabby’s inspiring story and reached out for video collaborations.

The communication from social influencers and notable DJs was shocking and surreal to Gabby, but what she cites as her true saving grace were the ordinary Instagrammers who looked to her for inspiration and support. She received an influx of DMs from athletes, dancers and others who experienced a similar, twisted journey of ups and downs because of CRPS or other injuries.

“One girl who was also suffering from CRPS reached out and told me she was completely hopeless, and I told her what to do and the proper medications to take. She’s kept me posted through her whole journey and told me she’s doing great and in less pain. It made me happy that even one person is okay because of what I went through.”

Because of the constant positive DMs, thoughtful comments, and inspiring words from a community of ravers Gabby had never met, she managed to push through her darkest hours.

“I’m eternally grateful to the rave community. I would probably still be sitting in my room depressed if these people didn’t take time out of their day to reach out to me.”

Now that Gabby isn’t glued to a couch nursing her foot, the serial shuffler has kept busy paying it forward. She continues to message fans, post shuffling tutorials, and inspire people every day. She also dreams of starting a blog about CRPS, which she’ll use as a platform to continue to share her story and raise awareness for the oft-misdiagnosed condition and the community that helped her.

“If someone says anything bad to me about ravers, I would tell them: These people have the biggest hearts of anyone I’ve ever come in contact with. There are so many people in the scene that are so filled with positivity.”

LINK TO STORY ON INSOMNIAC.COM: https://www.insomniac.com/magazine/how-the-rave-community-helped-this-dancer-overcome-her-darkest-hour

The Evolution Of Rave Fashion

When deciding what to wear to a rave, it helps first to consider your objective: Do you want to look hot? Dress for the weather? Express your personal style?

Or should your outfit simply complement the drugs you plan to do?

Since raves kicked off in late-1980s England, fashion trends have gone through countless evolutions. In the early '90s, you wouldn't have looked out of place in Doc Martens, denim overalls and a dust mask lined with Vicks VapoRub. Nowadays you wouldn't look crazy in neon lingerie combined with Native American headdress.


The oft-gaudy, dizzying convergence of styles – borrowed from sources as varied as cartoon characters, Rastafarianism, the goth scene and '70s psychedelic culture – seem random and arbitrary on their face. In fact, rave fashion has evolved alongside the scene itself, which was driven in its first days by American house music, ecstasy and the influence of Ibiza's club scene.

British DJ powerhouses Paul Oakenfold, Danny Rampling and Nicky Holloway are given credit for helping to popularize the music and ethos of the early underground rave scene. They took their first hits of ecstasy in the summer of 1987, while on vacation together in Ibiza. The euphoric, throbbing beats of the Spanish island's unique DJ sound – called Balearic, and combining styles such as early house music, Europop and upbeat rock – suddenly made more sense on drugs. The three men pledged then and there to bring their experience back to England.

Oakenfold and Rampling opened electronic music clubs, and Holloway started a venue focused on psychedelic-tinged subgenre acid house. Ecstasy, though illegal, was tolerated, and the scene inspired a change in typical nightclub fashion.

At the time, many clubbers wore designer garb. “The goal was to stand at the bar and look cool,” Oakenfold says now from his Los Angeles home. But designer duds gave way to Converse sneakers and oversized tees, which were more conducive to sweating and dancing the night away on ecstasy. “Literally overnight, rave fashion took over the high street, and people were interested in dressing down,” he says.

By 1989, the new chic club look was baggy and colorful – visually stimulating for folks who were high. Kids wore overalls, smiley-face T-shirts, paisley and tie-dye. Toy whistles and bright plastic beads replaced fine jewelry, as club style went from bourgeoisie to bohemian, drawing influences from the dressed-down clubbers of Ibiza and Summer of Love psychedelic imagery.

But venues couldn't stay open all night, so the club kids moved to abandoned buildings, airplane hangars and open fields. When the rave scene spread to America, U.K. transplants brought their ostentatious garb to the first raves in New York, San Francisco and Los Angeles.

California soon became an important rave hub, one where a new style began to dominate: Hip-hop-influenced kids introduced Adidas shell toes and baggy sweatpants, with colorful surf- and streetwear mixing in.

“You'd get kids who would come for the hip-hop and funk … the good-looking surfer guys and chicks, and then you had all the arts and fashion community,” recalls Steve Levy, who in the early '90s ran a popular club night called Truth at the Park Plaza Hotel in Westlake.

During that time, an artsy student who attended these parties started creating graphic tees. Rick Klotz's company, Freshjive, parodied popular corporate branding; one shirt substituted “Truth” in the Tide detergent logo, while other works put a spin on Twister, Crayola and 7-Eleven's Big Gulp. “Freshjive, outside of Stussy, was the most important early-'90s brand that was touching rave wear and streetwear,” says Raymond Roker, founder of URB magazine.

Surf and skate companies like Clobber, Quiksilver and Conart got in on the action, too, catering to ravers with bright, loose-fitting logo gear. Boutiques like Beat Non Stop began popping up on Melrose, offering extreme wide-leg JNCO pants. NaNa in Santa Monica had the chunky Converse sneakers and Doc Martens.

By the mid-1990s, everyone was dressing like grade-school kids, in giant furry-animal suits, Mickey Mouse gloves, Dr. Seuss hats and pony bead bracelets. You might have seen a girl dancing to Sasha & John Digweed sporting glitter gel in her pigtails, with a feather boa, rainbow suspenders and a tiny, stuffed-animal backpack. The dude with her might have had a full-body Pac-Man costume, or a Tickle Me Elmo puppet on his arm. Meanwhile, ravers sucked on pacifiers to alleviate teeth grinding, while the strong scent from the dust masks smeared with Vicks intensified the ecstasy's euphoric effects.

A bit disturbing? Maybe. But the raves – with names like Grape Ape, Camp Snoopy and Smurfs of the Enchanted Forest – were a chance to feel like a kid again, the ultimate escape from young-adult responsibilities. Even today, attendees wear, essentially, Halloween costumes to events with names like Winter Wonderland.

Mixing in were the club kids, who dressed up as anything from angels and Hindu deities to Cirque du Soleil – like characters. Club kids gained popularity at famous '80s-era New York clubs like the Limelight and the Palladium; much of the fashion was do-it-yourself, and many were cross-dressers or gay youth who had found a vital form of self-expression. By the early '90s, L.A. club kids sported everything from furry boots and gothic fetish wear to nipple pasties.

Parties from the Western United States became increasingly influential as well. Molly Hankins, editor at EDM-focused TheBPM.net, stresses the influence of the provocative costumes at the electronic-heavy desert festival Burning Man, which features anything from armored Mad Max – style costumes to whimsical fairy or unicorn getups. “Burning Man is all about radical self-expression,” Hankins says.

Though it seemed poised for a mainstream explosion, by the early aughts the rave scene had lost momentum, partly due to government crackdowns. But by the end of the decade it was bigger than ever, and we now live in the era of gigantic, corporate EDM festivals and DJ music on mainstream radio.

Sure, you still see kandi bracelets and cartoon outfits. And some elements of hippie culture remain, which could explain those deplorable Native American headdresses. But baggy jeans have been traded in for booty shorts and tutus, and tie-dye crop tops have been swapped for bras covered with daisies.

“We live in a much more sexualized time, especially if you look at the ready availability of porn imagery,” Roker says. “Aesthetic beauty is hyper-real and hyper-important, and it wasn't like that back in the day.”

If the early underground Midwestern house-music parties and club-kid scene was largely about giving repressed kids a safe space to be themselves, the now-mainstream EDM scene seems to be about giving girls from the suburbs a chance to show off their butts. “Raver kids were the freaks and geeks, and they aren't anymore,” Levy says.

L.A.-based DJ Fei-Fei says: “Back then, a lot more people were solely there for the music. Now half the people [at raves] don't even know the music.”

And there's no doubt that many DJs themselves contribute to this sexed-up atmosphere. Sure, dance music has always been stimulating, but genres like dubstep seem to be intruding on our brain chemistry. “Every [EDM] song has a drop – it's orgasmic,” Roker says.

Perhaps it comes down to this: For the same reason that London clubbers wanted to rebel against the designer dress code, today's kids want to wear something that's not acceptable most anywhere else. It's a chance to feel hot and, hopefully, shock your parents on your way out the door.

Rave culture, then and now, remains fixated on fantasy, on stepping out of everyday life. And that's true whether you're donning an XXL shirt, a Super Mario costume or a sequined bikini. 

LINK TO STORY ON L.A. WEEKLY: https://www.laweekly.com/the-evolution-of-rave-fashion/